This last month has been nothing then thinking about things. I have been thinking about everything that you could think about. Life, world, music, friends, past relationship, job, school, my attitude towards things, beliefs, me view on the world, and I do not know if this is where I want to be. I have this constant thought that whatever I am doing is wrong and I am messing up one thing or another. Most of our lives is a series of images that pass us by like towns on the highway. This quote has been killing me. It makes me think about things in the past. What if I had done things differently? Did I do the right things when it WAS the right time to do it? If I did change things what would have the out come have been?, should I go back through the past and find what I am looking for and bring back with me? Am I living in the past? Am I hoping what once was will soon be? Am I hoping ghosts that were in the past would pop there head back and tell me what I did wrong? Is what I have in front of me know what I wanted? The direction I have my thoughts and my life going is that where I want to be. I feel as if this is a mini mid life crisis [even though I am only 20] or I am just stupid and think into things a lot. Or I am 20 and I cannot rely on playground rules to solve all of life’s problems. I really just do not know, and it is not as if I have not looked for answers, I just cannot find the answers I want.